nothing happen at all

from the feeling i noe
there is nothing happen at all
it is my own stupidness
wahaha
now clearer bt tat
wooooo
tats y i keep avoid touching my handphone
for the sake of nt contact him
wahaha
and i manage to do tat
tats y i feel i was strong
vli tough...
i now follow wat they tel me
this is the nature of love
unpredictable and
unbelieveable

stalker LIFE~~

WOW...

I think i had done an amazing job within one week...
get to noe BH...
sms BH...
msn BH...
face to face BH...
AT LAST...
both like stranger~~~

AGAIN~~ i decide nt to b so initiate...
AGAIN~~ i cant control my over caring...
AGAIN~~ i receive BH first move...
AGAIN~~ i step bc to the bginning point...

haha...
feel jealous WHEN~~~
feel anxious WHEN~~~
feel pek cek WHEN~~
feel disturbing WHEN~~

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~

FINAL REPORT~~~
1)stalker basic was under discover during the first few days...
2)being treated as night stalker...
3)stalker basic mission was failed on monday...

haha~~~LEVITY is me!!!!!

write this to represent DEMI SOH's loyalty....


FRIENDS

utar's gang,,,,inner...
hmm...just can say so lucky to b with u all somethimes...
thanks...
hot tempere DEMI often pop out!~~
but u all can bear with me...
and for vian...
i really too piss of last time,,,
tats y i say so many rude words,,,
pls dun mind,,
just a passing period,,,

utar's gang,,,outer
hmm....thanks for the fetching sometimes
and thanks for the washing machine lending...
thanks for still being fren without earful~~

sab gang,,,FLEMING GANG
hmm...thanks tat we still keep in touch well...
i miss our life in form 5...
we ar fleming oways...
luckily we still having a pencil box as memory...
lets FLEMING FOREVER!!!

sab gang,,,dear school mate and club mate...
hmm...sorry for the disappear...
haha...
dun mean to do tat lah
but dun worry ya
wont forget u all!!!
goin bec muar sure hang out with u all!!!!

plkn frens...
say miss wont miss...
say dun miss but yes, miss u all..
bt jus feel no energy to follow sometimes..
anyway...
together with u all..
plkn is the best memories in my life!!!

haHA~~folly IS ME~~~

write this to represent  DEMI SOH CAI LING's reality~~

FAMILY
towards u all..
feel like owing~~

daddy,,,,thanks for sacrifices so many things just for our expenditures and other needs..
(i noe u like travelling)
but u had just throw them away and save the best for us...
and u oways go bec home so late...
nt enuf sleep had cause u some problm..
we still laugh at u sometimes....
sorry for tat
and
pls bcareful when u fly oversea and go other places for work...
remember,,,,
I LOVE YOU!!!!! so much!!!!!!

mummy,,,,thanks for being so anger towards us sometimes....
(i noe u are force to do so)
without u, i think SPOILT is the only words to describe ours life...
thanks for sacrifices ur time just to send us here and there to tuition class....
weekend suppose to b ur entertainment and relaxing days,
but we oways like to criticize ur activities...
actually we just wan to let u noe, DUN LEAVE DADDY ALONE AT HOME...
with us, oso can having a great time....
and pls...
take ur rest early...
i was away far frm home...
PLS TAKE GOOD CARE....


ah ma,,,,thanks for ur gently temper...
(u had bear for so long time dy)
i noe ah di had make u feel like piss off sometimes
as his sis,,,i say sorry...
pls try to understand tat he is still naive...
he is still a small boy...
WE LOVE U ACTUALLY!!!

ah gong,,,thanks for tolerate with us...
(ur atittude had change a lot i noe)
and for many times,
u being so abitary just bcoz u care  me....
u afraid that wil bcum my habits...
i noe u jus wanna threaten me and saving me..
bt u ar so nice sometimes...
I WILL REMEMBER WAT U HAD TOLD ME!!!


its been a month i didnt walk in there,,,,
its been a month i study here,,,
i miss u all....
i really miss u,,,,mum and dad,,,
I WIL TAKE MY OWN responsibility,,,,
I WIL LOVE MYSELF,,,
I WIL EAT WELL AND REST WELL...

TAKE CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

forgive me to b like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this time i reallY cant act like shit lah!!!!!
allow me to say something heavy here...
if u ar my frens!!!
pls dun b surprise with wat i abreact!!!

wat the fuck ar u talking abt...
too big to swallow??
then is it too big to sms???
then is it too big to call as class rep???
ok...
u apologive for this dy!!!
but i guess, no, i was very sure that u still dun noe wat u say!!!!

ur fucking comments on my status!!!
i delete it as my pleasure!!!
u dun noe wat i say !!!
so dun ask!!!!
dun comment!!!!
and dun instruct me!!!!

shit!!!
beh tahan lah me!!!!!
wat the hell is this!!!!

pls take wat u want frm me now!!!
i just giv u this apportunity!!!
ur only chance!!!
snatch watever u want from me!!!!!

NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOWN in the VALLEY!!!!!!

please dun bother how i reply..
please dun feel angry with the word i use...
and please,
do not care abt my tone..


its just a vli short period of time...
u mayb dun noe me vli much..
so,
please dun judge me...
and talk confidentally when i ask u back...


its been 18 years i lived in these WORLD...
this is my style of interaction with others...
especially when i was at home...
i communicate well with them using this method !!!



i was now disappointed with ur reasons...
now onli i realize...
in ur eyes...

as a fren,
i was nt a loyal fren...


i was now vli sad with ur reasons...
now onli i noe...
as ur fren,
i was nt reliable!!!


please dun 4get...
nt everyone are perfect..
no matter physically or mentally...
this is my unchangeble characteristics...
and i have try to make it disappear!!!

BUT!!!
please remember!!!
nt onli i am the one who has this problem..
u too...
worst than me!!!
just that u dun admit
@
u decline to accept it!!!
making any changes is too difficult for u oso!!!



so!!!!
please,i say please again!!!
dun b so proud and easy when u say something out!!!
pls think abt it b4 u say!!!
coz it really hurt and make some1 sad...

lucky TRIP~~~

goin for kl last weekend...
great!!!
she is goin to giv birth...soon..
and i can feel the little one movin in his small ""temporary house"...
its really amzing!!!

thanks for allowing me to brg my fren along...
@

thanks for fetching us to and from lrt station...

no matter early or late...

lucky me meet a kind aunty at lrt station tat day...

she give me "rapidpass"...
so i can travel all the way...free of charge!!!
although its the last day when i received this..
but i sincely thanks for ur kind giving...
this had save my $....