nothing happen at all

from the feeling i noe
there is nothing happen at all
it is my own stupidness
wahaha
now clearer bt tat
wooooo
tats y i keep avoid touching my handphone
for the sake of nt contact him
wahaha
and i manage to do tat
tats y i feel i was strong
vli tough...
i now follow wat they tel me
this is the nature of love
unpredictable and
unbelieveable

stalker LIFE~~

WOW...

I think i had done an amazing job within one week...
get to noe BH...
sms BH...
msn BH...
face to face BH...
AT LAST...
both like stranger~~~

AGAIN~~ i decide nt to b so initiate...
AGAIN~~ i cant control my over caring...
AGAIN~~ i receive BH first move...
AGAIN~~ i step bc to the bginning point...

haha...
feel jealous WHEN~~~
feel anxious WHEN~~~
feel pek cek WHEN~~
feel disturbing WHEN~~

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~

FINAL REPORT~~~
1)stalker basic was under discover during the first few days...
2)being treated as night stalker...
3)stalker basic mission was failed on monday...

haha~~~LEVITY is me!!!!!

write this to represent DEMI SOH's loyalty....


FRIENDS

utar's gang,,,,inner...
hmm...just can say so lucky to b with u all somethimes...
thanks...
hot tempere DEMI often pop out!~~
but u all can bear with me...
and for vian...
i really too piss of last time,,,
tats y i say so many rude words,,,
pls dun mind,,
just a passing period,,,

utar's gang,,,outer
hmm....thanks for the fetching sometimes
and thanks for the washing machine lending...
thanks for still being fren without earful~~

sab gang,,,FLEMING GANG
hmm...thanks tat we still keep in touch well...
i miss our life in form 5...
we ar fleming oways...
luckily we still having a pencil box as memory...
lets FLEMING FOREVER!!!

sab gang,,,dear school mate and club mate...
hmm...sorry for the disappear...
haha...
dun mean to do tat lah
but dun worry ya
wont forget u all!!!
goin bec muar sure hang out with u all!!!!

plkn frens...
say miss wont miss...
say dun miss but yes, miss u all..
bt jus feel no energy to follow sometimes..
anyway...
together with u all..
plkn is the best memories in my life!!!

haHA~~folly IS ME~~~

write this to represent  DEMI SOH CAI LING's reality~~

FAMILY
towards u all..
feel like owing~~

daddy,,,,thanks for sacrifices so many things just for our expenditures and other needs..
(i noe u like travelling)
but u had just throw them away and save the best for us...
and u oways go bec home so late...
nt enuf sleep had cause u some problm..
we still laugh at u sometimes....
sorry for tat
and
pls bcareful when u fly oversea and go other places for work...
remember,,,,
I LOVE YOU!!!!! so much!!!!!!

mummy,,,,thanks for being so anger towards us sometimes....
(i noe u are force to do so)
without u, i think SPOILT is the only words to describe ours life...
thanks for sacrifices ur time just to send us here and there to tuition class....
weekend suppose to b ur entertainment and relaxing days,
but we oways like to criticize ur activities...
actually we just wan to let u noe, DUN LEAVE DADDY ALONE AT HOME...
with us, oso can having a great time....
and pls...
take ur rest early...
i was away far frm home...
PLS TAKE GOOD CARE....


ah ma,,,,thanks for ur gently temper...
(u had bear for so long time dy)
i noe ah di had make u feel like piss off sometimes
as his sis,,,i say sorry...
pls try to understand tat he is still naive...
he is still a small boy...
WE LOVE U ACTUALLY!!!

ah gong,,,thanks for tolerate with us...
(ur atittude had change a lot i noe)
and for many times,
u being so abitary just bcoz u care  me....
u afraid that wil bcum my habits...
i noe u jus wanna threaten me and saving me..
bt u ar so nice sometimes...
I WILL REMEMBER WAT U HAD TOLD ME!!!


its been a month i didnt walk in there,,,,
its been a month i study here,,,
i miss u all....
i really miss u,,,,mum and dad,,,
I WIL TAKE MY OWN responsibility,,,,
I WIL LOVE MYSELF,,,
I WIL EAT WELL AND REST WELL...

TAKE CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

forgive me to b like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this time i reallY cant act like shit lah!!!!!
allow me to say something heavy here...
if u ar my frens!!!
pls dun b surprise with wat i abreact!!!

wat the fuck ar u talking abt...
too big to swallow??
then is it too big to sms???
then is it too big to call as class rep???
ok...
u apologive for this dy!!!
but i guess, no, i was very sure that u still dun noe wat u say!!!!

ur fucking comments on my status!!!
i delete it as my pleasure!!!
u dun noe wat i say !!!
so dun ask!!!!
dun comment!!!!
and dun instruct me!!!!

shit!!!
beh tahan lah me!!!!!
wat the hell is this!!!!

pls take wat u want frm me now!!!
i just giv u this apportunity!!!
ur only chance!!!
snatch watever u want from me!!!!!

NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOWN in the VALLEY!!!!!!

please dun bother how i reply..
please dun feel angry with the word i use...
and please,
do not care abt my tone..


its just a vli short period of time...
u mayb dun noe me vli much..
so,
please dun judge me...
and talk confidentally when i ask u back...


its been 18 years i lived in these WORLD...
this is my style of interaction with others...
especially when i was at home...
i communicate well with them using this method !!!



i was now disappointed with ur reasons...
now onli i realize...
in ur eyes...

as a fren,
i was nt a loyal fren...


i was now vli sad with ur reasons...
now onli i noe...
as ur fren,
i was nt reliable!!!


please dun 4get...
nt everyone are perfect..
no matter physically or mentally...
this is my unchangeble characteristics...
and i have try to make it disappear!!!

BUT!!!
please remember!!!
nt onli i am the one who has this problem..
u too...
worst than me!!!
just that u dun admit
@
u decline to accept it!!!
making any changes is too difficult for u oso!!!



so!!!!
please,i say please again!!!
dun b so proud and easy when u say something out!!!
pls think abt it b4 u say!!!
coz it really hurt and make some1 sad...

lucky TRIP~~~

goin for kl last weekend...
great!!!
she is goin to giv birth...soon..
and i can feel the little one movin in his small ""temporary house"...
its really amzing!!!

thanks for allowing me to brg my fren along...
@

thanks for fetching us to and from lrt station...

no matter early or late...

lucky me meet a kind aunty at lrt station tat day...

she give me "rapidpass"...
so i can travel all the way...free of charge!!!
although its the last day when i received this..
but i sincely thanks for ur kind giving...
this had save my $....

不解的迷惑~~一个我不解的世界！！！

有时候，还是会迷恋，以往所拥有的滋味。。。
虽然口头上千万个不愿意，但其实“它”已经在那蠢蠢欲动。。。
当时所考虑着的，是表面上的问题。。。
回想起，总觉得那很愚蠢，幼稚。。。

说后悔。。。
它也已经成了事实。。。
它也已经偏离了我的轨道。。。
现在想抓也抓不回了。。。

面对着，是我有点不熟悉的一片天空。。。
双手触碰时，我有时候还会装幼稚。。。
希望它的某一部分还会是属于我的。。。

但是，我总不能那么自私。。。
我不能为了自己，把你拖住。。。

去飞吧！！你不用回头！！你不用担心！！
我真的不会难过！！！
就用你饱满的羽翼！！！

去寻在你珍爱遗落的那片土地！！！

ipoh-ING...

so glad that we have chance and time...
AND we gathered....
this is my second time went IPOH~~
but this is my first time go somewhere by 'KERETA API'...
^^







me, you, him and him...
all together 4 ...
all together 2 pairs...
all together a pair of gay and 2 innocent girls...**
went to ipoh 
when the clock pointed at 11am++...

 

hear that my SISTA will meet us at IPOH PARADE...
quite surprise(for me)










its really lucky..
we meet our 'destiny bus' on the way to bus station...
although i have no seat and terpaksa to stand at least 10 minutes...
but this feeling...
this experience...
make me wanna flashback to secondary school...
'take bus' is my only way that can back home...
most of the time...

  went for lunch is our first mission...
KOPITIAM...
nice food..
nice drinks..
 nice lighting...

 went for  MOVIE is our second mission... SURROGATES!!!!!!!!!
BRUCE WILLIAM!!!!!!!!!
                              excellent!!!






SING K is surely our third mission...
2 hours time...
RM5 each...
is it worth?????
haha....


SHOP....SHOP....SHOP.... SHOP...


satisfied.....
coz i gt wat i want....
^^

my 4th day HERE~~

21/10/2009
wednesday
this is my 4th day at kampar...
third day at UTAR...
yesterday is wayne's birthday...
i 4get to wish him...
he seems like nt song with me...
complain to me tru msn...
today is raymond's birthday...
i almost 4get to wish him..
AGAIN!!!!
 just wanna say:
friends!!!!
very sorry about these...
i always forget urs birthday!!!
pls forgive me!!!!

and
for tomorow
22/10/09
is my little sister birthday...
mummy's birthday coming soon...
haha...
i sure wont 4get d!!!!~~~~

P/S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY
FOR ALL OF U WHO BORN ON OCTOBER!!!

new ME is here~~

packed jor my luggage...
its midnite 11 sumthing...
tat day is jy's birthday..
i suddenly wan eat burger..
wat a sad and delicious last burger at parit jawa~~

the next morning...
i wake up with swollen eyes..
its 9 am bus goin to kuala lumpur..
there's something "special" happen during tat morning..
there is 2 stubborn ppl and a crazy bus company...
oh ya~~
a law by law driver too...
they really mess up my great saturday morning..

GENTING again on the same day...
went there with my uncle and his family...
i accompany my aunty and her children...
unfortunately tat day cartoon movie nt on show...
we terpaksa go buy indoor theme park ticket~~
but there's not much ppl too...
so~~ 
its a great enjoying moment with them~~

and now...
inside the room...
facing my laptop..
and going to sleep early..
class awaiting for me 2morow...
this is my unique life in kampar...
life study at UTAR~~~
^^

the way @ a way i GAIN ^^

wu huuoo....
since 99....
this is my first time visited S'gapore...
so excited...expected and look forward...

i take bus there with my grandmum....
she expert dy...
i mean take bus go singapore...
haha
bcos she is a singaporian...
went bac her country often!!!

when we reach kastam..
i really kong mong...
first time see so many auto machine...
last time i oways take car there...
during the passport checking process...
i realize that....hmmhmm...
its vli easy if using a auto machine...

its really too easy go and bac at singapore(if u have a card and money)
one can take mrt at the bus interchange station ...
and there is shopping mall at every mrt station...

omg...
the most jealous thing for me is.....
the students in singapore really take their freedom
how to say
i can see students at everywhere, everytime.
unlike us...
have to go to school at the same time..
they even no need to wear white shoes(they wear their trendy sport shoes)
and their hair oso no need to pin here and pin there...
omg...
our system really out lah
if for me...i rather choose their...
haha...
this is wat i feel real lah...
but my secondary dinasty dy over..
now i freedom oso liao...^^

its really glad that meet with somebody i wish to meet and din see for a very long time...
sometimes wil miss them but when we really see face to face...
so sad...nothing to say...dunoe wat happen..
but i think is the time factor...
time can change every situation...
like wt i see during the second day...

waooooooo!!!
its really song!!!
coz i go out alone to meet my uncle and wn...
i take the bus alone o.....
they stil afraid i wil lost leh
walao....
lost then ask lo....
no need worrrrryyyyy d lah ah ma...
haha...

they brought me go eat japanese food...
but so pity me that..
i cant swallow any heavy meal(consume too much frm the first day there)
so i just eat a $5.80 stupid mango parfait icecream...
but the ramen they ate really smells nice...
we went sing K afterwards .....
hia hia hia...
playing around...
singing around...
flu patient..wn...u ar so geng...still can sing high pitch d song...！！！
lu guang zhong d ah gu...u ar oso geng...can sing gary chao d 寂寞先生！！！！

this trip really make me get in a lot...
i wish i can go there during my next sem break...
and explore more places there...
i want go sentosa!!!!

the most important thins is...
i finally found a chinese medicine shampoo that can save my hair !!!!
YEAH!!!!!

SPecIaL 4 u !!!!! HWV!!!!

on my way to singapore...
there is a song keep playing in my MP3....
SHE---------不做你的朋友
the lyric of the song make me think of somebody's situation...
if you see truely, clearly and concernly~~~
and here is the lyrics......



 S.H.E - 不作你的朋友


作词：葛大为
作曲：Tank
专辑：不想长大


慢慢失忆 所有和你的事情必须忘记
爱的盆地 深怕再一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想 被你肯定
在这个时候 说我 让你感动过



别握住我的手 说我一定会懂
做不成的爱人 变成最好朋友
别牵着我的手 想着别人脸孔
换个方式牵手 并不会更好过

可不可以 不作你的朋友




慢慢心痛 没有人发现我和从前不同
你的眼中 看的见另一人给的感动
我也不要 你心疼我
在这个时候 对我比从前温柔




别握住我的手 说我一定会懂
做不成的爱人 变成最好朋友
别牵着我的手 想着别人脸孔
换个方式牵手 并不会更好过
可不可以 不作你的朋友




应该放晴的天气 还下雨 别这样下去
我难过 还是说不出口




一直逃避 我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记
我的记忆 开始在雨天的七月二十三
慢慢经过 我们一起绕过的十字街口
怎麽走都走不到尽头




别握住我的手 说我一定会懂
做不成的爱人 变成最好朋友
别牵着我的手 想着别人脸孔
换个方式牵手 并不会更好过




可不可以 别回头


可不可以 不作你的朋友!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



this is wat i feel like u are facing....
hope u can settle it just like ur KIAM PA d character!!!
it is his lose if he din choose u!!!
and for me..
i think tat girl noe everything frm the start...
so~~~
i wish u luck...
just let this go...
there wil have a better day...
there wil have a better guy...
and he wil stand there just waiting for u!!!!!!






可不可以 就放手

***人鱼的眼泪****-----南拳妈妈

透过窗舷你望着翦影一夜
爱上她在天与海的交界
没源头用生命交换了双腿
只为走进爱的人身边

你赌上毁灭相信真爱会永远
不懂专情不适合人类
而你连道别都没有人听见
黎明後随浪花凋谢

你的泪一抹无邪
不属於这个冷漠的世界
舍弃了一切只为一个能够
付出你真爱的机会
你的泪一抹无邪
原来感情那么难以学会
他身边是谁 消失前后不后悔
你的悲伤是否像海一样深邃

你不想毁灭相信真爱会永远
不懂专情不适合人类
你最美的梦想泡沫伴随脸
剩童话里留下一页

你的泪一抹无邪
不属於这个冷漠的世界
舍弃了一切只为一个能够
付出你真爱的机会
你的泪一抹无邪
原来感情那么难以学会
他身边是谁 消失前后不后悔
你的悲伤是否像海一样深邃

你的泪一抹无邪
原来感情那么难以学会
他身边是谁 消失前后不后悔
人鱼最后的泪像海一样深邃

alone@ single@freedom~~~~~

just one step forward...
start my single blog...
mayb~~~
i want a personal?? space....
hope can see thru myself...
being a 18-year-old girl/boy....
see tat....
wat did i change?? @
what had really change by me... **

living a uni-life...
study at a small town with nice scenary...
here's where less ppl willing to come...
but many ppl have to stay stuck here for at least 3 -5 years....
no doubt...
just like me....
i am a good example~~
but i enjoy all this...
trust me...
i really enjoy my foundation first semester ...
although it is full of sadness and anger...
but it oso let me charge in many great experience especially!!!

looking forward yoooooo...............the next semester!!!!!!!